Bummer that you're giving it up beedee but honestly tending isn't for everyone.
Yeah man, ironic that it was almost a year to the date I started. The biggest issue for me was dropping down to Rookie and then moving up to Copper. I skated out in Gold for many years, so it was tough adjusting to the people in front of me lacking the experience, skills, and know-how. Sure it was a great workout, but I felt like I was always busting my ass for the team, while I would see people coasting, not back-checking, etc. Just about anything that could go wrong, did. I had a blast when I subbed in the upper Bronze level, but that was few and far between when sub opportunities presented themselves.
The mental aspect was also HUGE. While it is just rec hockey, it was tough to not hold on to a loss, even when you played your ass off....yet your team couldn't score one or two goals against a team that had a bad goalie. That drove me nuts, I know I can only control me, but it still sucked. As a player, it sucked to lose, but as a goalie, it was the next level of suck, at least for me it was. I'd get psyched up for games a couple days before hand, and carry some anxiety until stepping on the ice. As a skater, I never experienced that. It was more along the lines of "ok, ho-hum, i have a game at 6pm". But as a goalie, it was like "ok, crap, this team has this guy, that guy, and then this ringer that scored 4 on me last game". Another thing I struggled with was getting a decent warmup. Until you are a goalie, you don't really understand that trying to deke the goalie in warmups isn't cool, nor are headshots, or shooting when the goalie isn't facing you, or shooting when the goalie is putting the pegs in the net. I had a couple really cool defensemen that got "it". They were there for me and routinely communicated with me during games and the locker room.
Perhaps I expected too much? I suppose I didn't really know what to expect. What I do know is that it felt more frustrating than fun, and this season in particular, I wasn't looking forward to games. Winning isn't everything, but when you have a 4 game losing streak, that sucks. The team was 3-8 at the time of my departure. All in all, I'm very happy I took the plunge into goalie at the age of 40. I had played goalie growing up in street hockey and roller hockey and it was always a dream of mine to play it on ice.
I'm looking forward to skating out. My experience in goal certainly has made me a more well rounded player, that is for sure.